So, as the first in a trilogy, her personal issues are not resolved as preparation for uncovering a huge conspiracy in the other books. She succeeds in blasting into OS Protection/Gathering Information/Strategy solution, to her own demise. The information she fought for and got in OS is horrible personally MC.
Her personal MC "solution" of Rejection can't happen because of Preconditions. But probably most significantly, the IC impact (Protection) makes her miss the solution of Rejection. This choice she makes (unweighed Action based on her character) which ends in her MC bad judgment is important because the IC is the trilogy MC. (Don't shoot me!).
I know those are weird elements, (Rejection, Protection, Repulsion) but as #1 of 3, and as part of the Trilogy storyform, especially w/the premises, this works.
From what I read, the Bad is just how I set it up. The dilemmas.
I'm not sure I want to do that. It's actually an action she does, to be true to her character (steadfast) and there's nothing else she could do at that point without changing her character. Saving his life keeps her in her predicament. The "would have" is subtext. (that's a good little word, isn't it?)