Nothing I try feels right. I want to say something about how it’s better to try, even if you fail, than stew in regret and frustrated longing, not knowing what could’ve been because you let fear get to you and stop you from trying things. Something about not letting fear hold you back from trying things you want to do. It’s that it’s a mistake to try and avoid all suffering because it’s impossible and sensitizes you to it, but it can be managed-- one can become desensitized and get a more realistic picture of things by actually doing instead of speculating. I think a lot about fighting one’s nature, which is related to the instinct to run from anxiety, but I don’t know what Elements those are (I think Instinct/Conditioning are Issues) but Feeling vs Logic doesn’t give me a storyform that feels right either.
Change, Stop, Be-er, Holistic
Action, Optionlock, Success, Good
I can’t make the OS issue be anything like Fate (inevitable suffering) because Dramatica won’t let me (I did read that article, but I can’t do much if I’m unsure at the premise level). If I try Worry… well, I’m not sure if that’s just an MC or everyone’s problem (I’m trying to strip away the kitchen sink of story telling I ended up with and just get to what I’m trying to say), and I end up with Accurate or Non-accurate, which makes no sense unless I’m talking about perfectionism (which I could argue falling under either Element). Not sure Avoid works or if too Linear. Temptation and Conscience look the same to me but I guess the Temptation to give into Conscience makes conscience the subject and not source? I don’t know.
I wonder on and off whether to give up on this one-- might be too close to my heart, but that’s why I can’t just toss it even though it’s so troublesome. I don’t want to be a quitter yet again.